Get Over It!

I have been called a lot of things in my life some good and some bad.... I can now add "hot mess" to the list! You would think this would be part of the bad section but as I sit here grinning I am adding it to the good section of things to be called! If I am learning anything about myself as I walk this path, it is that I do not do well without sleep!! Pretty sure I have known this all along but for some reason I keep repeating the pattern and learning this over and over again! It's amazing what a good days rest can do for a the tired mind and soul... yes I meant days rest! As I woke from sleeping the majority of my Saturday away walls broke and emotions poured out that I haven't really dealt with in years. I became a "hot mess"! I am certain deep inside there is a part of me that is shaking in disbelief of my thoughts and actions but considering the way I feel today - I am okay with it! I can't move forward if I am not willing share my scars from the past! My outlook is clear today and I am finding that being so hard on myself is only going to leave me miserable and lonely! I am only human and in that I am allowed to make mistakes - aren't we all?? 

As I continue down this path called life I have had several ups and downs. Anyone that truly knows me, knows I do everything on a large scale... go big or go home! So my ups are truly highs and my downs.... well "hot mess".. remember?? It seems in these moments when I am down I hear the same things time and again. I have been told everything will be okay, to let it all out, to forgive myself, to stop being so hard on myself, to put it in gods hands, and that everything happens for a reason. This is all sound advice and seems to work for a second! It wasn't until last night when I was looked straight in the face and told to "get over it" that things suddenly made sense! Get Over it?? Really, just like that? As I sit here laughing, it truly is the best advice of all! So yes, I am going to get over it! 

I am not sure what I was thinking all along.... over thinking that is! I am Crystal Rae... perfectly imperfect, overly emotional, and now a hot mess! Sounds great doesn't it?? I realize in life we all have pain and wounds that take time to heal. That these don't just go away but in the right mindset life can go on! I am looking forward to the future and living life day by day! I am getting over it..... and laughing on my way! It's important to be honest and share how you feel but hiding in the corners of your past just might cause you to miss out on something very real! 

So here I go... moving forward... fingers crossed for the best! 

Today is a new day and my past is finally being laid to rest!