As I continue on my path in life... my journey... I find things about myself that come to my surprise. I have given up on "The List" or doing my best to try - but what I find is it wasn't this list that was holding me back.... It was my heart! I think every girl and maybe even every guy has the ideal of what happily ever looks like or what they want it to be, but I also think as life goes on and you meet new people, you find they have scars.... Scars that are hard to forget or are afraid to reopen. I find myself on this new path of healthy... working out like crazy and eating all healthy foods (minus last night... I sooo longed for fried food)! I find as much as I physically feel better - my heart and head not so much! So in knowing I am perfectly imperfect and overly emotional - what does this mean? Well.... this means that I have once again come to realization that what I want from life and what I am willing to risk to get it don't go hand in hand!! I am learning that I have built walls of great design and the minute someone begins to break them down I run.....
I am so tired of running but I am also not yet willing to put effort into the beginning - I just want the end! I want to know its right and what is meant to be.... if only life was this simple!
So today my advice for you is to stop thinking... to care deeply for those that care for you and soak in the laughter! Happily ever after is overrated and just plan BS! We all have troubles and we all have things we wish we could redo... so stop thinking of the past and focus on the present.... just live life!!! I am certain if we do so we will make bad choices, but we will also make great ones. We cant determine if someone is meant to be until we try.
I am Crystal Rae and today I turn the page...... another chapter - another thought... the only thing that matters is that I do today with what yesterday I was afraid I sought!!
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