It's amazing how your life can change in an instant. How out of the blue something can turn your life upside down and not for the worse, but for the better. I promised as I went on this journey I would share my ups and downs - insides and outs...
I remember waking at one point in my life with thoughts and predictions on how my life would continue on. On what each detail would look like. I began mentally tracking the details that would most fit into my life. These mental items poured out of me each time I experienced another up or down. A moment of what I didn't want to feel again or on the up, a moment of bliss. These mental thoughts day by day added up and became "The List"!
I think this list made me feel secure and set - you know that feeling you have when you think you know the unknown? I could compare the world, each moment, each experience and mark off the items that worked or didn't. Keep in mind this was all mental so unless you are truly close to me, the list is new to you! My latest obsession is finding my happily after so of course the majority of the list is based on the man of my dreams. The rest is focused on my children, my job, my home, my health, my pets... yes its a long list but I have a great mind and memory...
As each of us move forward in life we all find day to day moments that make us question our thoughts or beliefs. I find myself sitting here tonight typing with great emotion. I find life can be filled with so much happiness and yet still provide a twist that knocks the air out of your chest. So I have a choice... I can sit and ponder on the unfairness of the roller coaster I am currently strapped in OR I can smile and truly believe that everything happens for a reason. That life doesn't have to be the half empty glass, nor does it have to be half full....
What I do know is that I cannot predict my future! I cannot control the unknown but I can live today! I can start fresh and handle life as it happens. I am a strong person and I know I can handle whatever comes my way. I am Crystal Rae and...... "The List".... no longer exists as of today!!
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